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The Magic of Christmas Through My Son’s Eyes

There’s something enchanting about seeing the world through the eyes of a child, especially during Christmas. This year, my four-year-old son has fully embraced the magic of the season, and as a mother, it’s a joy I can hardly put into words.

Every morning, he wakes up with excitement, his little feet racing down the hallway to find out what the elf has done. Each small treat feels like a treasure to him, and his wonder reminds me that even the simplest moments can hold so much magic. This year, he’s all in on Santa— talking about how he’s going to leave out cookies and milk, and making sure we remember to sprinkle “reindeer food” in the yard.

Watching him believe so wholeheartedly is a gift. His eyes light up when we talk about Santa’s sleigh flying through the night sky, and he often stares out the window, as if he might catch a glimpse of Rudolph’s glowing red nose. He’s brimming with questions: “Does he really know what I want?” “Do you think he’ll like the cookies I leave out for him?”

His belief has rekindled mine. Not in Santa per say, but in the beauty of hope, wonder, and the joy of giving. The way he hugs me tightly after we read “The Night Before Christmas” or the excitement in his voice as we decorate the tree reminds me of the magic we too often lose as adults.

What I love most, though, is how his joy spreads to everyone around him. His laughter while dancing to Christmas music, his delight at seeing the twinkling lights in our neighborhood, and the way he proudly tells anyone who will listen that Santa is coming soon—it’s infectious. He’s teaching me to slow down and savor these fleeting moments, to see Christmas as more than just a checklist of to-dos.

This season, I find myself more grateful than ever for the gift of motherhood. Watching my son experience the magic of Christmas makes every late night wrapping presents, every sticky cookie-baking mess, and every moment spent making this time of year special worth it. It’s in his joy that I find my own.

Years from now, when he’s older and the magic of Santa fades, I’ll still hold onto these memories. I’ll remember the way his face lit up when he talked about Santa’s workshop, and the way his tiny hand fit perfectly in mine as we walked through a winter wonderland of lights.

For now, though, I’ll soak in every moment of this Christmas season, letting his belief fuel my own. Because through his eyes, Christmas is truly magical—and through my heart as his mom, it always will be.

A Mom’s Prayer for Better Days

Today, I whispered a prayer into the stillness of the morning, the only quiet moment I could find before the chaos of the day began. I prayed for strength, for grace, and for better days ahead. Being a mom is the most beautiful and yet the most challenging thing I’ve ever done. Right now, it feels heavy—so heavy.

My mental health has been on my mind a lot lately. I’m learning to acknowledge that it’s okay to not feel okay all the time. It doesn’t make me less of a mom; it makes me human. I’m juggling so much—trying to meet the demands of motherhood, nurturing my own well-being, and finding the patience my son deserves. Some days, it feels like I’m running on fumes, but I remind myself: this is just a season.

I’ve been working on patience. Oh, how I pray for patience. When my son’s little hands spill the milk, when he refuses to eat the food I just cooked, when his energy seems endless and mine is all but gone—it’s hard. But I know that in these moments, he’s not trying to test me; he’s just being a child. He’s learning, just as I am.

I remind myself to breathe, to pause before reacting, to look into his innocent eyes and remember that these are the moments I’ll miss one day. I know I won’t get this time back, and that thought brings a bittersweet ache to my heart. I want to be the mom he can count on, the mom he feels safe with—even when the world feels overwhelming.

I’m learning that it’s okay to take small steps. Some days, the victory is simply getting through the day. Other days, it’s finding a moment to laugh together or watching him learn something new. And every day, I remind myself that it’s okay to ask for help—whether that’s leaning on my partner, talking to a friend, or seeking guidance through prayer.

I know the days are hard right now, but I also know they won’t stay this way. There’s a light ahead; I feel it even in my weary moments. I’m holding on to hope, holding on to faith, and trusting that better days are coming.

To the mom who might be reading this, if you’re struggling too, know you’re not alone. We’re in this together, doing our best with what we have. And even on the hard days, our love for our children shines brighter than anything else.

So today, I prayed not just for myself but for you too—for every mom out there who’s carrying the weight of the world on her shoulders. I prayed for your strength, your peace, and your patience. And I prayed for better days for all of us.

Because we deserve them, and so do our children. And I truly believe they’re on their way.

With love,

A Mom Who Understands

Navigating the Chaos: A Hard Day with My Four-Year-Old

Motherhood is a rollercoaster—a thrilling, beautiful, and sometimes downright exhausting ride. Today was one of those hard days, the kind that makes you question if you’re doing anything right, even when you’re giving it your all.

My four-year-old son, who can be the sweetest, most loving child, decided to flip a switch and become what I can only describe as a tiny, relentless tornado. It started off innocently enough—a simple breakfast routine gone awry when he demanded pancakes, only to reject them the moment they were on his plate. From there, it spiraled.

I spent the better part of the day trying to teach him manners and appropriate behavior. I’ve been working on this for months—trying to guide him to listen, to follow directions, to understand boundaries. Some days, I feel like we’re making progress. But today? Today felt like all that work unraveled in an instant.

He screamed when I asked him to pick up his toys. He threw a shoe when I said we couldn’t have dessert before lunch. And no amount of redirection or calm reasoning seemed to work. It was like he wasn’t hearing me at all—lost in his own whirlwind of emotions and energy.

By mid-afternoon, I was at my wit’s end. I tried taking deep breaths. I tried stepping away for a moment to collect myself. But the truth is, I’m tired. I’m emotionally drained from the constant push-and-pull of teaching, correcting, and guiding. It’s not that I don’t love being a mom—I do, with every fiber of my being. But some days, the weight of it all feels heavier than others.

As I write this, I’m reflecting on what today taught me. Motherhood isn’t about perfection. It’s about showing up, even when it’s hard. It’s about taking it one moment at a time, even when you feel like you’re failing.

Tonight, after the chaos finally settled, I tucked my son into bed. He looked up at me with those big, innocent eyes and said, “I love you, Mommy.” And in that moment, I realized that despite the hard days, I’m doing something right.

Tomorrow is a new day—a new opportunity to try again, to love harder, to teach with patience, and to grow alongside my little whirlwind. Motherhood isn’t easy, but it’s worth every exhausting, stressful, and wear-you-out moment.

To all the moms out there who are navigating tough days: You’re not alone. We’re in this together, taking it one day at a time.

The Exhausted Mom’s Journey: Finding Grace in the Chaos

Today was one of those days. The kind where everything feels heavy, chaotic, and utterly overwhelming. My four-year-old son, full of energy and mischief, seemed to push every boundary imaginable. From the moment he woke up until the second his little head hit the pillow, the house echoed with his shouts, and laughter.

I tried to keep my cool. I really did. But no amount of deep breaths or whispered prayers could stop the tidal wave of frustration from crashing over me. He darted from room to room, ignoring every word I said, throwing toys, and testing limits like it was his full-time job.

I ask myself daily: Am I doing enough? Am I being patient enough? Loving enough? Because no matter how hard I try, it feels like I fall short every single day. I want to be the calm, nurturing mom who has it all together. But most days, I’m just surviving.

By the time bedtime rolls around, I’m so drained that I want to collapse on the couch. But instead, I crawl into bed next to him. As he snuggles close to me, his tiny body finally still, the weight of the day fades. I look at his sweet face, and I’m reminded why I keep trying.

No matter how wild the day was, no matter how many times I lost my temper or felt like giving up, this moment is what matters. The love I have for my son outweighs all the stress and chaos.

In those quiet nighttime moments, I whisper to myself: We’ll get there. We’ll figure this out together. One day, the tantrums will fade, the yelling will stop, and the wildness will settle. But for now, this is where we are.

And while I can’t control everything, I can hold onto this truth: my son knows he is loved. Deeply. Fiercely. Unconditionally.

To every mom out there who feels like she’s barely holding it together: I see you. You’re not alone. You’re doing your best, and that’s more than enough. Some days will feel impossible, but in the end, love is what wins.